usual stuffs

everyday is the usual things usual stuffs that i do. hangout with frens. futsal. anything. feeling forever alone. envy looking at other people with the couple.

yet. looking back at myself i started to wonder why it all ended up like this? the answer is all because of my own silly mistakes. yup. i once had a person who is nice, beautiful to me, everything that a man wants in a wife he ever dreamt of. but my stupidity n my lust made me threw it all away. n now what i have is the regret that i dunno when it will going to end. fair enough.

ALLAh said in the Qur'an : "in every hardship there will come ease"

so i myself believe in this verse. maybe right now the best thing that i could do is just pray for her success and pray that one day she'll accept me back. n if she didn't then i'll pray that she will find a better man who is 1000000 times better than me. n though i felt like this everyday i try my best to not let it get the best of me.

plus, even though feeling like this. i am grateful coz i hv friends that would go a thousand miles just to help me. hv my family that loves me no matter what especially my mum n dad. n i am healthy bcoz of the gift of health from the Almighty.

i believe things happen for a reason. n i believe that's why this time i really think carefully before making any decision in involving myself in a relationship. i let the time set it all for me. if she's the one for me. one day she'll be back. if not. then i believe that there's someone somewhere out there looking for me. :)

thus, let us enjoy what we hv now n appreciate every single things dat might look simple but yet makes us feel like we're on top of the world. no one knows when the nikmah that we received now will going to be taken away from us.

last but not least. let me end my post with a verse from Qur'an:

"remember me (Allah) n i will remember you. be grateful to me (Allah) n don't u become a kuffar"

with full of regret,

wslm.

lemahnya diri ini jika dibandingkan dgn yg lain

kaku aku membaca blog2 yg ditulis oleh rakan2 seperjuangan.

melihat bagaimana mereka memberikan perasaan yg berbeza hanya melalui penulisan.

nak dibandingkan dgn penulisan aku yg ala2 budak sekolah ni.. rasa hina sebab penulisan ini tiada pengisian. insyaAllah penulisan yg akan datang aku akan cube selit sedikit pengisian.

mlm ni xda mood nk menulis. sekian

wslm

HAHA!

life is the best when we make it the best. is it true?

for me i think it is. sebab ape. i used to be gloomy moody emosi all the time. but all of that has changed. now i'm trying to live myself to the fullest. n not forgetting the almighty insyaAllah. neways. my mum offered me a trip to seoul korea this coming april. well, when an offer comes u shud grab it aite? so rase cm nk pergi. but at first memang xnk gi. tapi sebab ummi cam mengharap anak kesayangan die ni pegi so pegi jelah :P (seum dwa!)

neways sambung balik topik td. well pas futsal td gi hangout jap dgn rakan2. n time tu sgt best sbb ade due galaxy note. n we all start drawing faces of each other. n mcm2 yg keluar. eventhough ada lukisan yg agak mengutuk. tp ape2 pn we all terima dgn hati yg terbuka. itu menunjukkan yg kita menerima diri kita seadanya. haha. semua punca dari runningman. smpai maen futsal pn pk nk menang sbb nak runningball. ape2 pon. runningman ni macam makin menceriakan group kami. kadang2 benda2 kecil cmni yg boleh merapatkan lagi ukhuwah antara sahabat2.

am so happy to have my fren. my dongsaeng. my hyungnim. haha. semua ada. masing2 cuba fitkan diri masing2 dgn watak2 yg ada dalam runningman. walupon smua tu hanya siri tv. tp atleast kami still ceria2.. n masing2 pn mcm makin terbuka bila kena kutuk2 tu kan. masing2 paham semua tu hanya gurau senda... :)

anyways. always live happy. jgn sedih2 kalau takde kekasih hati. ataupun crush kita tak reply msg ke apa ke.. insyaAllah things will get better soon. Allah dah tentukan yg terbaik utk kita. kita hanya mampu merancang. its 6.40 in the monin' and am about to put myself to sleep.

seum dwa! daebak. ssakda ssakda!

haha

chow!

For a guy like me, the answer is you
Even if I tell you simply- even if I don’t make sense
For a guy like me, the answer is you
Even if I can’t explain, this is how I feel- should I die?

This is how I feel- should I die?
This is how I feel- should I die?

When you said you wanted to break up,
I got mad and yelled and drunkenly hit the wall
I bump shoulders with a passer-by and
I swear at him and ask him what he’s looking at
I hated everything about the world and you get disappointed by my actions
But this is serious- cut all the bull crap and if I don’t have you, I’ll go crazy, what do I do?
How must I feel to act like this? You’re crying too because you still love me
I’m on my knees because I’m sorry- That’s why I hold onto you
I won’t give any pathetic excuses or elaborate promises
Please don’t turn around

For a guy like me, the answer is you
Even if I tell you simply- even if I don’t make sense
For a guy like me, the answer is you
Even if I can’t explain, this is how I feel- should I die?

I say “Why can’t you trust me?” as it touched a nerve inside me
We dated for a year and I hated myself for doing so many bad things during that time
At the end of these fights, I always lose love
I used to say guys must know how to cheat, guys must never cling onto women
I used to say that but now you left and I’m all alone and my heart burns
And now what I’ll say is that for me, you are the answer
Now I finally realize how precious you are
If you leave, I lose everything, I forget everything
Please trust me just one more time please

Oh my love that endured through me
I’m an unworthy guy who only gave you tears till now
But still, I always, only think of you

Only if you’re next to me, I gain strength
You know this so please come back
Only if you’re next to me, it’s perfect
You know this so please come back

Even couples in their eighties fight and argue all the time
But they still love each other and live well to this day
You are that kind of person to me
I always gave excuses, flared my temper, was stubborn and unworthy
But to me, you are a dream and you are love
There’s no answer to love but to me, you’re the answer
That’s how I really feel

For a guy like me, the answer is you
Even if I tell you simply- even if I don’t make sense
For a guy like me, the answer is you
Even if I can’t explain, this is how I feel- should I die? (2x)

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 쉽게 말해도 내가 말이 안 되도

Na swib-ge mal-hae-do nae-ga mal-a an doe-do

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 설명 못 해도

Na seol-myeong mot hae-do

내 맘이 그래 나 죽어 버릴까

Nae mam-i geu-rae na jok-eo beo-ril-gga

내 맘이 그래 나 죽어 버릴까

Nae mam-i geu-rae na juk-eo beo-ril-gga

내 맘이 그래 나 죽어 버릴까

Nae mam-i geu-rae-na juk-eo beo-ril-gga

헤어지자는 너의 말에

He-eo-ji-ja-neun neo-eui mal-e

난 화가 나 소리치고

Nan hwa-ga na so-ri-chi-go

술에 취해 벽을 치고

Sul-e chwi-hae byeok-eul chi-go

괜한 사람 어깨를 부딪치고

Gwaen-han sa-ram eo-ggae-ruel bu-dit-chi-go

욕하고 뭘 보냐며 시비 걸고

Yok-ha-go mweol bo-nyeo-myeo shi-bi geol-go

그렇게 세상 모든 게 다 싫고

Geu-reoh-ge se-sang mo-deun ge da shilh-go

그런 내 모습에 넌 또 실망해

Geu-reon nae mo-seub-e neon ddo shilh-mang-hae

하지만 나 심각해 앞뒤 다 자르고

Ha-ji-man na shim-gak-hae ap-dwi-da ja-reu-go

니가 없으면 미치겠는데 어떡해

Ni-ga eobs-eu-myeon mi-chi-gett-neun-de eo-ddeok-hae

오죽하면 내가 이래 너도 울잖아

O-juk-ha-myeon nae-ga i-rae neo-do ul-janh-a

아직 나 사랑하니까 무릎 꿇잖아

A-jik na sa-rang-ha-ni-gga mu-reup ggulh-janh-a

내가 미안하니까 그러니까 붙잡아

Nae-ga mi-an-ha-ni-gga geu-reo-ni-gga but-jab-a

구차한 변명 거창한 약속 따윈

Gu-cha-han byeon-myoeng geo-jang-han yak-sok dda-win

하진 않을게 돌아서지 마

Ha-jin anh-eul-ge dol-a-seo-ji ma

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 쉽게 말해도 내가 말이 안 되도

Na swib-ge mal-hae-do nae-ga mal-i an doe-do

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 설명 못 해도

Na seol-myeong mot hae-do

내 맘이 그래 나 죽어 버릴까

Nae mam-i geu-rae na juk-eo beo-ril-gga

너는 왜 나를 못 믿어

Neo-enun wae na-reul mot mid-eo

말하면서 속으론 찔려

Mal-ha-myeon-seo sok-eu-ron jjil-ryeo

우리 사랑했던 1년 그 시간 동안

U-ri sa-rang-haett-deon 1 nyeon geu shi-gan dong-an

못할 짓 많이 했던 내 자신이

Mot-hal jit manh-i haett-deon nae jan-shin-i

너무나 싫어 이런 싸움 끝엔

Neo-mu-na shilh-eo i-reon ssa-um ggeut-en

언제나 사랑을 잃어

Eon-je-na sa-rang-eul ilh-eo

남잔 바람도 필 줄 알아야 돼

Nam-jan ba-ram-do pil jul al-a-ya-dwae

여자에 얽매이면 안 돼

Yeo-ja-e eolk-mae-i-myeon an dwae

그렇게 말했던 이 남잔

Geu-reoh-ge mal-haett-deon i nam-jan

니가 떠나고 홀로 남자 가슴에

Ni-ga ddeo-na-go hol-lo nam-ja ga-seum-e

불이 난다 그리고 한다는 말이

Bul-i nan-da geu-ri-go han-da-neun mal-i

나에게 정답은 너야

Na-e-ge jeong-dab-eun neo-ya

이제서야 니 소중함을 알았던 거야

I-je-seo-ya ni so-jung-ham-eul al-att-deon geo-ya

니가 떠나면 난 다 잃어

Ni-ga ddeo-na-myeon nan da ilhe-o

다 잊어 다시 한 번만

Da ij-eo da-shi han beon-man

날 믿어줘 제발

Nal mid-eo-jweo je-bal

오 나를 견뎌준 내 사랑아

O na-reul gyeon-dyeo-jun nae sa-rang-a

지금껏 네게 준 건 눈물뿐인

Ji-geum-ggeot ne-ge jun geon nun-mul-bbun-in

이 못난 놈은 그래도 널

I mot-nan nom-eun geu-rae-do neol

언제나 너만 생각해

Eon-je-na neo-man saeng-gak-hae

네가 내 옆에 있어야 힘이나

Ne-ga nae yeop-e iss-eo-ya him-i-na

잘 알잖아 돌아와

Jal al-janh-a dol-a-wa

Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh

네가 내 옆에 있어야 완벽해

Ne-ga nae yeop-e iss-eo-ya wan-byeok-hae

잘 알잖아 돌아와 줘

Jal al-janh-a- dol-a-wa jweo

Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh



80 넘은 부부도 싸우고

80 nyeom-eun bu-bu-do ssa-u-go

보름도 안 되서 또 티격태격

Bo-reum-do an doe-seo ddo ti-gyeok-tae-gyeok

하지만 오늘도 서로 사랑하며

Ha-ji-man o-neul-do seo-ro sa-rang-ha-myeo

살아가잖아 넌 나에겐 그런 존재

Sal-a-ga-janh-a neon na-e-gen geu-reon jon-jae

매일 핑계뿐이고 승질 부리고

Mae-il ping-gyeo-bbun-i-go seung-jil bu-ri-go

우기고 참 못났지만 나에겐

U-gi-go cham mot-natt-ji-man na-e-gen

니가 꿈이고 사랑이야

Ni-ga ggum-i-go sa-rang-i-ya

사랑에 답은 없지만

Sa-rang-e dab-eun eobs-ji-man

나에겐 니가 답이야

Na-e-gen ni-ga dab-i-ya

그게 내 진짜 마음이야

Geu-ge nae jin-jja ma-eum-i-ya

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 쉽게 말해도 내가 말이 안 되도

Na swib-ge mal-hae-do nae-ga mal-i an doe-do

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 설명 못 해도

Na seol-myeong mot hae-do

내 맘이 그래 나 죽어 버릴까

Nae mam-i geu-rae na juk-eo beo-ril-gga

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 쉽게 말해도 내가 말이 안 되도

Na swib-ge mal-hae-do nae-ga mal-i an doe-do

나란 놈은 답은 너다

Na-ran nom-eun dab-eun neo-da

나 설명 못 해도

Na seol-myeong mot hae-do

내 맘이 그래 나 죽어 버릴까

Nae mam-i geu-rae na juk-eo beo-ril-gga

sorry.

just wanted to say sorry to everyone that i've ever hurt. intentionally or unintentionally. seriously.

org kate hidup xtenang sebab ramai org xsuka kite. so better kalau kita minx maap n mengharap keampunan dari org2 yg pernah kite sakiti.

tv and reality

what we saw on tv doesn't really mean that its true. n that's the difference. in real life things are not as easy as what we saw on tv shows.

perhaps i did put my hopes high n hoping my life would one day be like a tv show but guess i was wrong. so from now on back to normal life mode. lets just enjoy what we have now n be grateful for who we are.